Weekdays or weekends, to me, they no longer differ...
Sniff Sniff... that's my current physical state.
Finally, my body couldn't take it anymore. Yes, i fell sick finally. The first sneeze started with my first step into the staff room after the last lesson on friday. I felt perfectly fine the whole morning...who knows... sighz.
ANyway, if you are guessing it's the workload that's causing me to fall sick, you are not wrong, yet you are not totally right. Besides being stressed (sub-consciously), i felt quite oppressed for a period of time. I dunno if i used the right word, but yah i felt very bottled up, like i am going to burst out any moment. I wanted to pour all out to someone, but i couldn't find anyone... at least not anyone in school-- the only place i go besides home.
Well, I went home one day, decided to call just anyone to just talk. Surprising, the whole world seems to be uncontactable when you need them, (I am sure you would have experienced this somewhere down the journey of your life.) and i had to let it out through msn instead, by talking to a fren online. Sigh, this is so 凄凉.
I hope that this sickness will take away my sadness altogether and brings about a fresh start to another healthy journey ahead. -- All ready for school again.
Wish me well, friends. The fact that you are reading these shows that you care about what's going on in my life. Thank you.
flew into your heart at [5:55 PM]
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the first time in the 3rd week
time flies... this is the third week of school and i am super behind syllabus. Sigh. Anyway, that's not the point.
There are a lot of "first times this week" :
The first time i had to combine 4 classes for a mother tongue afternoon curriculum. No voice.
The first time i used visualizer... I forgot to plug in the power cable. And i fidgeted with the equipment for a whole 15minutes... best. I was too blur i guess. Oops.
The first time i attended CCA meeting. Sigh, so tired. Nearly fell asleep if not for the lipton tea. haha.
The first time i heard the school song... yeah today. If not for the council investiture, i guess i would not get to hear it. Hmmm, to my amazement, the school song sounds familiar!! In fact, it has the same tune as "Jesus Loves the little children, all the children of the world. Red and yellow black and white, all are precious in his sight..." I nearly fainted.
Now that it's into the third week. I can confirm with you again that this is the career for super man and woman. No one else can ever survive if you are not super. ...
flew into your heart at [1:10 PM]
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Last day of the first week
I couldn't bear to let Thurs pass... the day of NIE investiture, the day when we could take off from work, the day when we could just relax and haf fun... and so it happens.
Friday can't be stopped. It just comes... lessons again.
This day morning, i was just happily standing behind my class waiting for assembly to start when i was approached to be the timekeeper for oral that very day. Well, there goes my afternoon... "nvm just this one" or so i thought. Soon after, i was approached again : "hey let's make it today and tues. thanks."
What could i say? "Okay thank you. "
Finally after the oral and some packing up of stuff, it was about 6 when i left school. I met my friend for dinner and we went to my practicum's school concert. Well well, maybe the world is small, i have to see my current school's students (of all people) there.... sigh.
Sianz. But well, i never regreted going. All those familiar environment and faces just lights up my day. Now it's really time to pack up my feelings and start embarking on another journey, dealing with students of a different environment.
One encouraging fact thou is when i conducted group work today, the class was like angels! Just imagine every of your kids focusing on answering the worksheets on their hands. That's the ideal classroom situation that all of us would want! And i am thankful for being the privillege one to catch a glimpse of that. HA.
flew into your heart at [12:09 AM]
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